Mindset Unsettled: Too Much of A Good Thing?
The leap goes on …
Is there such a thing as too much freedom? Too many options?
A few months ago, my answer to those questions would have been, “Only if there isn’t enough time.”
Now, I’m asking, “Is there such a thing as too much time?”
Since I began my all-out Living the Law of Attraction (see previous post), I’ve finally reached the point where all the decisions are mine. No more waiting for the carpenters to finish, the satellite installers to install, the plethora of agents and accountants to divvy up what is mine.
I’m no longer deeply in debt. I now know the exact amount of money I have and about how long I can live on it alone, depending on how I choose to live. I’m completely free to decide what options I want to pursue and how much time I have to pick the ones I like best.
It sounds like paradise and in many ways it is. But tell my brain and body that. They’ll tell you it’s more like hell.
It may sound stupid - and that’s OK, really - but I no longer know when to sleep or when to eat. I don’t know when it’s fine to kick back and watch the world go by or when to allow myself to write for 15 hours straight. I’m restless but tired. My moods swing wildly. One minute I’m feeling like a miser and the next I’m generous beyond wisdom.
To tell you the truth, I didn’t know what to expect when I began this new life. I still don’t. And there’s no one out there who can tell me what to expect.
I’ve figured out this much: Looking before you leap is wise, as long as you go ahead and leap. What I personally should have done - your experience will vary - is to have looked well beyond the leap and all its complications and concentrated a little more on the landing.
If I’d been all-knowing, I would have made some very strong but simple goals, some very concrete things to build a foundation to stand on when this tidal wave of freedom hit. I mean simple. 1,2,3 and so on. I’ve always been more free-form than that, but I simply underestimated the wild, frightening, exhilarating feeling of having no one to answer to.
I could call this a lack of self-discipline, but it’s more like pure wide-eyed wonder. This is the “kid in a candy store” we always dream of, only with an adult’s knowledge that you just can’t carry all the things you want and if you don’t pace yourself, you’re gonna get really, really sick.
I’m going to make some 1,2,3 goals right now but not let them set my path in stone. I’m going to pick three things I’ve always wanted to attempt and see if I can do them to my satisfaction. A less concrete goal is to take my focus off money. It needs to flow forward and back at its own pace.
And I need to keep in mind that the Law of Attraction will wait for me to find out what I really want. There’s no expiration date on dreams except for the ones we impose.
1. Leap.
2. Land.
3. Let go of who you were.


